i don't know what happened.
it's been a while since i've last posted in this blog. i thought i'd spend the winter break making sense of my life and all that's happened, this past fall ..
tomorrow is my first day of teaching for the spring semester;oh well: my classes meet in the afternoon, so i guess i'll write them tomorrow morning.
today i spent 8 hours in the office, i was busy all day ..
.. and yet i still haven't written out my lecture notes!
it's been a while since i've last posted in this blog. i thought i'd spend the winter break making sense of my life and all that's happened, this past fall ..
.. what with this new position at a new university and all ..
.. but things still don't make sense. most days of the week i'm making it up as i go along, just trying .. trying my best to get it all done and stay sane at the same time.
there never seems enough time to do it all: teaching, research, faculty meetings and advising and so on. more precisely, there is never enough time in the sizes and shapes that i want them [1].
if i could identify a change in my life, then i'd say that time now comes in fractured form.
so i shouldn't talk about what i did during winter break [2]. it would be more appropriate to say what i didn't do.
.. but not so deeply as to make it too much like work;
i think i got somewhere with it.
this past week i realised that, starting tomorrow, i will have to start doing things for a while: commitments, duties, promises ..
it's starting again. whether it makes sense or not, this new job and life, there are things to do, again.
there never seems enough time to do it all: teaching, research, faculty meetings and advising and so on. more precisely, there is never enough time in the sizes and shapes that i want them [1].
if i could identify a change in my life, then i'd say that time now comes in fractured form.
so i shouldn't talk about what i did during winter break [2]. it would be more appropriate to say what i didn't do.
i didn't go to the office,i wanted to, i tried to write up notes for a research idea. there ended up being a flaw in the argument and so i thought, off-&-on about the problem ..
i didn't answer any student emails that i didn't have to answer.
i didn't make sense of my life,
i didn't travel out of town,
i didn't make any new goals.
for the most part, i didn't want to do anything.
.. but not so deeply as to make it too much like work;
i think i got somewhere with it.
this past week i realised that, starting tomorrow, i will have to start doing things for a while: commitments, duties, promises ..
it's starting again. whether it makes sense or not, this new job and life, there are things to do, again.
[1] if you spend enough time staring at weekly schedules, such as the default format for gοogle calendar, then time stops feeling 1-dimensional and linear. instead, it becomes more and more like a very weird tetris game in 2-D, fitting commitments into rapidly dwindling empty spaces.
[2] today was also the first day of spring classes, so quite a few colleagues asked me that question anyway.
[2] today was also the first day of spring classes, so quite a few colleagues asked me that question anyway.
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