say, is anyone still reading this?
..
it's been a while, hasn't it?
somehow it's become my habit NOT to write in this blog. not a lot's been happening, i guess: i applied to a few more jobs, written up a close-to-complete set of notes [1] on some recent results, and started getting back to a few research collaborations.
when i think about it, i do a lot of worrying and complaining here. i suppose that's natural, for two reasons:
[1] -- i think i referred to it as a "preprint" in recent memory -- if not here, then in an actual conversation with colleagues. in truth, it used to be a preprint, but while i was checking some details, some new ideas come up. then i had my doubts if anything worked .. but now i think i can see why the proof should and does work.
the short version: i'm pretty sure i proved some new special cases of the Ambrοsio-Kirchheιm conjecture, and reduced the full conjecture to a different (still unsolved) special case.
[2] -- that could be the seasonal affective disorder talking. today it became bright at around 9:30am and dark again, near 3pm. i feel tired most of the time, except late at night. i haven't gotten around to taking any vitamin d supplements yet .. maybe i should do so.
[3] -- it's kind of like writer's block. instead of not being inspired to write, it would be a combination of not getting new ideas and none of the old ideas working.
..
it's been a while, hasn't it?
somehow it's become my habit NOT to write in this blog. not a lot's been happening, i guess: i applied to a few more jobs, written up a close-to-complete set of notes [1] on some recent results, and started getting back to a few research collaborations.
when i think about it, i do a lot of worrying and complaining here. i suppose that's natural, for two reasons:
- it's year number four since i defended my dissertation, and i still don't know if i have a future in mathematics. part of me wants to blame the economy .. but most of me acknowledges that i haven't been doing enough, my results not particularly noteworthy.
i don't know. i'm trying, but often i don't see any progress, and not much hope. [2]
- apart from the future and general malaise, the present day is going fairly well. aside from the climate around here [2] my complaints are few, and i think the freedom from teaching has done me some good.
i feel like i now understand more about mathematics, and become a better researcher. i haven't had mathematician's block [3] in a while: the ideas are still there, some are taking shape.
[1] -- i think i referred to it as a "preprint" in recent memory -- if not here, then in an actual conversation with colleagues. in truth, it used to be a preprint, but while i was checking some details, some new ideas come up. then i had my doubts if anything worked .. but now i think i can see why the proof should and does work.
the short version: i'm pretty sure i proved some new special cases of the Ambrοsio-Kirchheιm conjecture, and reduced the full conjecture to a different (still unsolved) special case.
[2] -- that could be the seasonal affective disorder talking. today it became bright at around 9:30am and dark again, near 3pm. i feel tired most of the time, except late at night. i haven't gotten around to taking any vitamin d supplements yet .. maybe i should do so.
[3] -- it's kind of like writer's block. instead of not being inspired to write, it would be a combination of not getting new ideas and none of the old ideas working.
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