research ideas live, then die, then are reborn, then ..?

sometimes i hate being right about being wrong.

so far this latest idea (see earlier post) isn't too much different from its precedessors, and i haven't found any additional leverage from using the language of ¢urrents.

on the other hand, a related observation would give a new approach towards disproving another conjecture i've been thinking about. granted, it would only serve as one of several steps and the most crucial work would still be equally difficult. [1]

research can be soul-crushing. i think i've told this storyline before, but it remains true again and again.

one day you wake up, have an idea, try it out;
later that evening, you realise that you have a counterexample;
despondently you go to bed, sleeping fitfully.

the next morning, as you're about to throw away the scratch paper,
the ambiguity returns:

you learn that you don't need that exact property
something weaker suffices,
one that the counterexample doesn't disprove.

but you don't have time to pursue this;
you have to teach in 2 hours and you haven't written your lesson plan yet.
while hastily writing lecture notes,
you never realised how much you hated calculus,
and how they get in the way of "real math."



[1] essentially, disproving the conjecture would involve constructing a completely new object which has precisely certain abstract properties (c0ntinuity, multi1inearity, 1ocality, etc) yet avoid almost all of the standard constructions (e.g. p0lyhedral appr0ximation).

to be honest, it's not clear to me which side to take. at this point, either answer would be surprising to me, actually.

article post: apparently universities care about grades.

admittedly, i once had this very same thought, except:

1. i was going to give everyone B's instead of A's;
   
2. i subsequently wondered how cool it would be if i had a magical mug which never ran out of fresh coffee.

as for which thought, i mean this one (as cut-and-pasted from the g1obe and mai1):

On the first day of his fourth-year physics class, Univer$ity of 0ttawa professor Denis Ran¢ourt announced to his students that he had already decided their marks: Everybody was getting an A+.

It was not his job, as he explained later, to rank their skills for future employers, or train them to be “information transfer machines,” regurgitating facts on demand. Released from the pressure to ace the test, they would become “scientists, not automatons,” he reasoned.

But by abandoning traditional marks, Prof. Ranc0urt apparently sealed his own failing grade: In December, the senior physicist was suspended from teaching, locked out of his laboratory and told that the university administration was recommending his dismissal and banning him from campus.

maybe writing and grading exams aren't that bad, after all.

i must say, the use of the word "automatons" was a nice touch.

do1drums.

this past week has felt like damage control for the upcoming midterm exams. sometimes i wonder what teaching would be like without an exam, every month or so. without grades?

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i feel like i haven't had a good research idea in a while, that nothing's been working.

maybe i'm not spending enough (uninterrupted) time thinking about the situation. maybe i'm not looking at the right problems. maybe i haven't read enough and i'm making my life all the more difficult by unsuccessfully "reinventing the wheel."

(admittedly, too often i feel like i don't know enough.)

last night i asked myself how i managed to do enough research to write a thesis -- a rhetorical question, of course -- but the answer is something like this:

i spent months and years collecting little lemmas i proved,
then, one night, i get this one idea;

in the ensuing months i reworked it,
rebuilt it, polished it,
wrote pages and pages explaining it,
and in the end, a thesis came out of it.

that causes two reactions in me.

1. crap. do i have to wait for inspiration?
   was that one good idea really luck? i can't count on luck!
   
   
2. the lemmas did come in handy;
   the day to day work does have its payoff,
   so it does count for something.
   

i suppose it is like anything else in life: good news and bad news, at the same time.

teaching lessons learned.

1. avoid teaching two courses that i haven't taught before during the same term.
   
   
2. avoid teaching in the mornings;
   
   it doesn't matter what the subject is.
   i'm better off teaching in the afternoons.
   
   
3. unless the department offers me a specific tech guy or TA to handle it, avoid teaching courses which require a computer component (e.g. using MatLab, Maple).
   
   this always boils down to doing your own tech support,
   which is its own share of misery.

teaching takes time and mindspace.

it's happening again.

my morning class is suffering regularly from lectures with too many technical details, the sort of details that i initially think are "important" --

-- only to realise that no, they don't actually need this to understand the examples or do their homework problems; they don't care, either.

they just want the d@mned formu1as.
i could be wrong, but that's what i suspect.


i could proceed to rant about dilemmas and opinions about students who don't want to learn, about what it should mean to teach mathematics, about this and that. i think i could expound for pages and pages. however, i'd mostly be repeating or paraphrasing my old posts and preaching to the choir of teaching researchers everywhere.

that serves no purpose;
not today, anyway.
there's work to do:

1. i have a problem in mind, one that a senior colleague suggested. the setting is not full set yet, and we're scouting in the dark: what can these techniques prove, exactly?

2. i have this idea that i've yet to try out for one of my usual obsessions (read: conjectures). admittedly, i don't think it will work. it's a little too similar to my previous ideas, each of which failed for essentially the same reason (or proof obstruction). this latest idea, however, borrows leverage directly from 9e0metric mea$ure the0ry, whereas my old ideas were too crude and began always from first principles.

3. i'm behind in my article writing. it wasn't funny before, and it's not funny now.


work beckons, and it is greedy for mindspace.

i'll teach the best i can with the time allotted, fine;
but there's more to my work than minding students.

currently ill; no luck, either.

there are a lot of mathematicians on fa¢eb00k. apparently i'm supposed to know a lot of hyperb0lic 9eometers and 9eometric gr0up the0rists. [1]

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as it happens, i am ill with a cold, which explains friday's nap. it also explains the constant headache that i had during my friday lecture(s). [2]

my philosophy is: when you're sick, you get to spoil yourself.

so this weekend i've been spoiling myself mathematically. i've set aside recent research ideas in favor of my favorite mathematical problems. i've made no progress of course, and from most points of view i'm only more frustrated than i usually am ..

.. but i wouldn't have done anything different.

it's like going golfing and having a bad day, going on a fishing trip and not catching anything, going running and developing a side-stitch after two blocks, or going to the cinema and watching a dud of a film. in life, we always take our chances, even with fun.

this weekend won't make the best memories of my mathematical life. that's okay. they're still my favorite maths problems.

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[1] at least, according to the "people you may know" tool. i'm also likely to know many finns.

[2] admittedly, i had thought my students were to blame .. somehow. that probably says something about my biases, but in my defense, i was running a fever at the time. after all, can you trust the judgment of someone who took a nap on his desktable?!?

on .. er, office naps.

if there was one graduate student office at university of michigan that i envied, it was the corner office facing church st, on the first floor. that office had it all:

* few officemates (4 people in total);
* a window [1];
* a full-sized chalkboard;
* two large bookcases;
* a couch.

there may even have been a mini fridge; i can't remember.

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at any rate, today i wished my office had a couch. after my afternoon lecture today, i had no energy left, and i felt asleep while in the middle of an email.

the wise thing would have been to go home and take a proper nap. then again, there was the weekly colloquium and there would be one more meeting.

thinking it through, i looked at my desk ..
which happened to be positioned right next to my officemate's desk ..
who is never in the office ..

and after all, isn't the top a couch really just a deformation of a horizontal plane ..?

so i learned one lesson today: winter coats may make very good pillows, but there is a very good reason why people shouldn't sleep on top of desks.

it's not because of setting down the desk/table or staying on top of it. resting on a flat surface is not too much like sleeping on the ground; eventually one gets used to it.

but like sleeping on the ground, it's getting up that is painful. the back and the knees remember that they should be slightly bent and begin their complaints, in the form of aches.

anyways, i think i might be unwell. maybe it's time for a nap.

[1] to my knowledge, only two grad offices had windows. the other one had 10-12 desks and half a wall of windows .. which faced a brick wall.

when worlds (or classes) collide.

during my monday lecture in lιnear algebra, i discussed when a set of vectors are linear1y (in)depεndent. in tomorrow's lecture, i will teach them how to multiply matri¢es.

on the other hand: for tomorrow's lecture in differentιal equatiοns, i will discuss when two solutions of a lιnear homοgeneous ODE are lιnearly (in)dependεnt.

i'm usually alert enough not to give the wrong lecture to the wrong class. however, it will be mildly difficult not to bring up lιnear algebra in the diff.eq class and derivatives in the lιnear algebra class.

for instance, i can imagine myself saying something glib like this:

"for 2nd οrder lιnear ODE, the basic idea is to find two solutiοns which build all the other soluti0ns for you, i.e. the general solutiοn.

to do this right, we need two so1utions which are 'different enough' from each other. for this we will use some termino1ogy that may be familiar from lιnear algebra, except we will use infinite-dimensional vectors instead.

anyway, we say that two so1utions are lιnearly independent when .."

on the other hand, in the other class i'm also tempted to discuss differentiati0n as a lιnear οperator which can be represented as an infinite-dimensiοnal maτrix ..

.. well, assuming the only functi0ns that one cares about are real-analytιc. i imagine (unhappily) that all of my students believe the fallacy that not only 'all fun¢tions are differentiab1e,' but that 'every functiοn can be represented as a taylοr series.'

[sighs]

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in other news, i wish i had something exciting to blog about and which relates to research.

unfortunately, i don't. i can tell you that yesterday, i learned that one of my arguments is wrong. indeed, everyone is wrong at some point ..

.. but it gets particularly annoying when i had thought of this, months ago it had "proved" a lemma and which subsequently led to corοllaries and and a few applications ..

.. argh.

on the other hand, this morning i thought about how to patch the proof using a different argument and .. it's going to be messy (if possible at all).

anyways, life goes on. as the saying goes:
in light of rigοr, it's depressing how little we mathematιcians can prove.

papers end, writing never does.

the preprint [1] is done;
i declare it to be done.

one problem solved, another problem open:
where the heck am i going to submit it?

this, i vow: apart from formatting it for submission to a journal, i will no longer edit it, for its quality will only deteriorate if i add further "ideas which sounded good at the time."

also: it's time to write another preprint, and i'll need to cite the first preprint. it's time that the first one become a published paper: something worthy of being cited.

after all, would you trust the main result in one preprint, which depends crucially on a result in another (unpublished) preprint?

admittedly, i would have my suspicions ..

[1] this is the one cut out from my thesis. if you're still waiting on the sch0enflies result(s), then sorry: you'll have to wait another month or two.

quick (& silly) observation: on reading.

you know, sometimes it's fun to read mathematics in french. it really helps, however, to know what theorems to expect (i.e. cheating); as a result, the words usually mean what you think they mean.

uncertainty isn't a bad thing, though. a friend of mine once made this observation, and i think it is a good one:

there is a built-in mechanism for further care, when reading mathematical french. if you don't know what a word in the theorem means, then it immediately urges you to work out the proof carefully.

anyways, back to reading/proving.