déja vu, the boring kind.

yesterday and tomorrow i will be giving essentially the same lessons to my classes. the odd part is that they aren't the same courses.

apparently ei9enva1ues and ei9envect0rs are rather useful in this world .. at least for 0DE, anyway.

one minor gripe: yesterday i spent some 5-7 minutes explaining determinants to my 0DE students, if only because 1inear a1gebra is not a prerequisiτe for the course. this wouldn't usually bother me, but in a previous class i asked the students:

"out of curiosity, how many of you have taken 1inear a1gebra before?"
80% of the audiences hands shot up.

so i know i am boring most of them with things they already know. my hand is forced. then again:

1. just because they have learned matrices before doesn't mean they know how to work with matri¢es well.
   
   
2. even if it were spectacularly new material, they would probably be bored anyway.
   
   
3. boredom is a privilege. would they rather be in a panic from the sheer volume of new, confusing notions that i would hypothetically throw at them?
   

at any rate, enough self-recriminations and -justifications. work beckons.

paradox and diplomacy.

the paradox of age:
when i get older, i would be happy to still appear young.
for now, i am young and would rather look older.

at least, i wouldn't mind not looking like a student.

perhaps it's my clothes; if i wore a three-piece suit, then at least i would be known as "that overdressed peacock of a postdo¢" and not be confused with being a student ..

.. not that it's a horrible thing, being a student. i enjoyed those years as long as they lasted. all i want to say is that with age confusion comes minor problems.

for example,

1. while visiting colleagues this weekend, i stopped by the main office and asked where the coffee pot was. the secretary told me that it's meant only for professors.
   
   diplomatically, i asked if it is also meant for visitors. to identify myself, i pointed to an abstract of the talk .. only to remember that i was wholly unidentifiable in it.
   
   despite that, she apologized and showed me where the coffee pot was.
   
   
   
2. on the second leg of my return flight, i was sitting next to a bearded man, and the magazine he was reading had the symbols IEEE on the upper-left corner of the cover.
   
   aha, i thought, a fellow techie! it would be safe to do math in front of him. jotting down a few ideas, some minutes later he looked over and asked,
   
   "say, what class is that from? it looks familiar."
   the thing is, i was using my own notation.
   huh. so he thinks i'm a student.
   
   "oh, it's not from a course," i said diplomatically, "but the notation is from a measure and integration course. it's not unlike probability and statistics."
   
   he nodded silently.
   
   "are you a scholar?" i asked him.
   "oh, no," he replied, "i'm an engineer."
   
   he then returned to his iPod.

a solemn vow.

next fall i am definitely applying for an N$F grant; even if i am in the hospital [1], i vow to plan ahead and make the deadline. of course, it helps for the job search in two years, but there's more.

i've been a lucky man, so far:
i've been a guest many times in my (short) mathematical life,
and i've met colleagues who are fine hosts.

it's time for me to learn how to be a good host,
and to seek out the means in order to be a good host.

curse my bad luck:
of all the years for a stimu1us pa¢kage to benefit the N$F,
it is the year that i didn't apply for research funds!

[1] the week before the deadline, last fall, my hand was forced and i was stuck in the hospital for a span of days. this is a poor excuse, though: these sorts of applications require a month or two, as i've been warned ..

responsibilities ☑, now, research!

i'm out of town, visiting colleagues, so i'm not teaching today.
i already gave my talk yesterday; one less thing to worry about.

today and tomorrow have a simple agenda:
talk math, do research.

this should be interesting. i have a good feeling about this weekend.

never leave your invisibi1ity c1oak at home.

yesterday i tried writing a talk.
i ended up writing most of one.

if i learned anything from this, it's not to write a talk while at the office, and especially not the day before my students have homework due.

at every office hour, students showed up -- 10am, 1pm, 4pm [1] -- with questions of all sorts from both classes.

there was one request where we did the gory details of one problem, with the student constantly scratching his head, not sure where things went wrong. in the end, another student with a copy of the solutions manual found a discrepancy: the textbook author used the wrong initial conditions, so the answer in the back of the textbook was wrong.

(i like to think that this affirms my disdain towards solutions manuals in general, but that would be self-serving.)

but that wasn't all.

at some point between afternoon office hours, a colleague stopped by and asked a question about uniform estimates for certain families of functions. the problem was interesting enough to avoid an "i'm busy." when that meeting ended, my own diff.eq students walked in ..

.. leaving a lonely cursor,
blinking, on my laptop screen,
next to incomplete 1atex do11ar signs,

and so i explained systems.

oddest of all, as it was approaching evening and i was thinking about leaving, i run into one of the PDE profs in the department.

"hey, you're an ana1yst .." he says.

i know that this was the sequence of events: he walks into my office, he writes the heat equation on my chalkboard, and we discuss a question about integral estimates of solutions (that weren't quite gronwa11's inequa1ity).

what i don't know is how it unraveled that way. i have no expertise at all, for parabo1ic PDE.

thinking it through,

1. i'm surprised i wrote that much in the remaining span of tuesday;
   
   
2. i should have hidden away at a coffeehouse during every minute that i didn't have to spend in office hours.

in the end, there is 1 or 2 slides left, but that night i crashed at 3am, with all the other things that needed to be done.

[1] i usually have 4 office hours a week. currently i'm out of town, so i stacked my hours towards some measure of fairness.

# slides ≥ 8; a good question.

currently: i'm writing a talk.

this is worrisome. i've just stated my main theorem, and already i have 8 slides. to my credit, however, one of the slides is a title page, another is a diagram, and two others are full of references.

so perhaps i'm doing well:
after 3 slides (which includes stating someone else's theorem), i can state mine.

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odd: lecturing is a little like running. with enough teaching experience, one knows one's own pace. [1] accounting for gory computations and careful diagrams, 6-7 handwritten pages of my notes usually fills a 50-minute lecture.

then again, i may cover material more quickly than others. possibly i am slower: i don't know. you'd have to ask my students.

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speaking of students, yesterday a student visited my office hours. usually this is a time to be tactful, to lecture less, and in particular, to make sure that i'm not doing all the work that students should be doing [2].

i was expecting a statement like:
    "i don't know how to do #23.
    can you show it to me?"

instead, the student asked:
    "i really don't understand what a subspace is and what a basis is.
    can you explain it again?"

so we talked about subspaces and bases, and various levels of concrete or abstract examples. (s)he asked good clarifying questions -- "what about this? does that check that it's a basis?" -- i like to think that the student now understands these fundamental notions better, but i can't be sure.

well, at least it was more fun than my usual office hour questions. (:


[1] my cadence is disturbingly regular: 160-165 steps per minute (counting footsteps of both feet), which i think is relatively normal. i've been told that elite runners have a cadence of around 185-190 steps a minute.

[2] when i think about it, there is much less effort in doing the problem for the students rather than urging them along and make them do it themselves. it may well be easier; however, are the students really learning if they don't do it themselves?

"the best 1aid p1ans .."

for several days i've been excited about this one idea (as described in an earlier post). i had proved a little lemma which gave me hope. it was just enough leverage that the argument could be continued.

so i worked on it, off and on, forming claims that, if proven true, would eventually lead to the theorem that i wanted. every day i was getting closer, and today i almost had it.

then i stopped, suddenly uneasy. my inner pessimist spoke:

it can't be this easy.
i'm making all of this progress in one week,
after trying in vain for months,
trying to attack this same problem.

so i went outside for a walk, had lunch, came back,
and sure enough, i found errors everywhere:

i had made an estimate using maxima1 fun¢tions, and that still holds true. my mistake was assuming, for some inexplicable reason, that it was a uniform estimate for an entire sequence of L¹-functi0ns.

i had also misused a property of the we@k-sτar topo109y which doesn't hold true (in general) for the we@k t0pology.

i guess i wanted it too much: to prove the theorem. so i became sloppy.

odd. everyone tells me to be more optimistic,
whereas the pessimist in me is often more useful.

oh well.

maybe there's something worth keeping, within those silly notions. it's not like i have any good ideas at the moment, anyway.

about xk¢d, and a few lamentations.

xk¢d is awesome. it is my favorite webcomic.

today they have a valentine's day comic, but fractal-styled.

for more on the mathematica11y romantic theme, comics #55 and #162 are also sure bets.

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in other news, i wish i knew certain theories better.
among them are:

ge0metri¢ mεasure the0ry,
¢heeger's differentiabi1ity the0rem on (certain) metri¢ measμre spa¢es,
the general industry of mappin9s of finiτe dist0rsion.

most days of the week i'm surprised that i ever proved anything.

keeping count (with photos)

sometimes i am surprised that i am a mathematician. i seem unable to keep count of anything discrete, whether it be scores in games of pick-up basketball, cards shown face up while playing bridge ..

.. or the scales for dyadi¢ intervals,
in midst of self-similar constructions.

woe is me,
if there are two sets of scales running!

despite the anonymous pixelisation,
my woe is readily apparent.

my notes are that of an uncertain man: indices (and diagrams) are clearly labeled, in efforts to ensure that the right quantities vanish or march towards infinity ..

a sawtooth function at one set of scales,
then dyadic intervals at another scale..

.. as, too often, i make errors and find errors.

teaching complaints, retraction of complaints; a cool type of mea$ure.

today i finished grading a stack of ODE midterm exams [1];
about two hours later, i collected a new stack of linear algebra midterm exams.

the fun continues.

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you know, despite my incessant complaining about teaching, my teaching load is 2+2. i've heard of better deals, but then again, i've seen job ads for positions with 3-4 classes per term.

speaking of which, i am very, very glad that i am not on the job market this year. some of my friends have already heard good news ..

(congrats to them!!!)

.. but one quick look at the "temp0rary resear¢h positi0ns" part of the maτh j0bs wιki gives me pause.

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regarding research, i have to say: i think the notion of s1icing mea$ure is quite cool [2].

suppose we have a Rad0n mea$ure μ on euc1idean n-spa¢e. one can restrict it to a slab, that is, a neighb0rhood of a hyperp1ane, and renormalize it:

μ_ε := (μ({ |z - c| < ε }))^-1 &mu | { |z - c| < ε }

(here z is one of the usual euc1idean c0ordinate functi0ns.)

the total variation of the family of me@sures { μ_ε} is uniform1y b0unded in the tota1 variati0n norm -- in fact, they are probabi1ity me@sures -- so it admits a weak-sτar c0nvergent sub-sequen¢e. one can show that the sub-1imit me@sure is supported on the hyperplane {z = c}.

this may be my naivete at work, but what surprises me is that the normalization can be taken to be euclidean: (2ε)^-1, that is, euc1idean scaling. as a consequence of differenτiation the0rems for mea$ures and a pushf0rward pr0cedure, a limit mea$ure ν exists for a.e. value of c.

huh:
(2ε)^-1 ∫_{{ |z - c| < ε }} φ dμ → ∫_{{z = c}} φ dν as ε → 0.

for some reason, i would have been worried about degeneracies. again, call me naive.

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[1] sometimes i wonder if my students experience temporary insanity during exams. the only other explanation is that some of them don't undrestand separati0n of variab1es at all.

[2] see Matti1a's book, chapter 10.